Random Thoughts and random lights

Man, the last time i'm ever going to go into it again , is when i know i have nothing else to lose.
For all the grey clouds lining i have seen, it's no longer just something i really hoped forward to having, but actually something waiting to reveal it's bright lights and it's inner self.
Crazy period? but i guess it's more to insecurities than just the wild being itself.
Nothing will hurt more than hurting yourself.


Everything has been zooming past my naked eye lately. At a pace so fast , death will come first before i actually participate in all thats lined up.
"PS" has been a popular word to associate me with lately.
Not Platoon Sergeant. But Pang Sei[ meaning not going ]

I've been getting along hazily with me making the world revolve around me. Call it a veil of protection. Call it getting the hippier of things going hippier than ever.

With Valentine's day coming, i have been in the mood not for me, but for the boys so in their innocence preparing for that big day.
With all the '50 reasons why i love you' and 'you-know-whats' , i feel that Valentine Day is everyday.
Not just a day to especially show your love. It kinda makes the whole thing so fake. actually.
But oh well, on the other hand, there's nothing more than valentine's day to show your loved one that you're not taken granted for. and that this day is the day where you are my most special one, even though you are my most special one everyday . . .

I have finally closed my 2nd year IPPT window with a gold medal. Hooray, with my record 2.4km timing of 8.49 mins.*claps Claps*

I honestly can't wait for my Bintan Trip @ the end of this month. I need a getaway.